"It's better to be unhappy alone than unhappy with someone"
~Marlyn Monroe
~Marlyn Monroe
Gue belum pernah memaknai apa arti sendirian sejauh ini. Tapi sekarang, seiring berjalannya waktu, sedikit demi sedikit gue mengerti apa itu sendiri, sendirian, kesepian dan bahkan efeknya.
Sampai sekian lama akhirnya gue bisa setuju dengan omongan orang-orang banyak: "Sedih adalah ketika kita bahagia tapi ngga ada yang bisa diajak berbagi kebahagiaan".
I mean this family.
Here I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to. Can't pretend if i didn't know twitter, blog, tumblr, facebook before :S
If I could,
I just wanna talk. Especially to you Mom.
"Happy enough with your account, Mom?"
"Hi Mom, I got toothache, would you make a plate of mashed potatoes?"
"Mom, the national exam is 25 days left, and 31 May&1June is getting closer, hmmm I think I'm a little bit nervous"
"Mom, if Bryan pass all the test and go to Bali, it means we must be rarely meet, I think we need to go there once a month hahaha"
"Mom, do you hear me? I need you so much closer"
"Mom, I think there's something separate us"
Lend me your eyes if you would
I need a breath of what you see
I just wonder, did you see me?
Hmm, maybe time isn't so cruel. It will change by itself.
Do you see? You see her loneliness?Well, she and I share the same loneliness at this time...
Nothing hurts than being alone.
Tapi setelah ditelaah lagi seharusnya ini menjadi saat-saat gue belajar dewasa, menjaga dan mengurus diri sendiri. Dan diluar ini semua dan masalah apapun yang ada di dalamnya, I have God, I have many people who loved me :') I just need to be stronger.
Hey, I'm 17th, I'm young, let's play something, let's go out and found a new place, go trip, eat something new, do something weird, anything.
And absolutely, keep smiling :D
p.s: I have one more question to you, Mom; "Do you miss me like I did?"
